And somehow, because I watched it, I think my life is going to radically change.
How did this happen? How can something so minor as pressing the play button on a video on YouTube THAT I WASN’T EVEN LOOKING FOR alter the course of my life?
After yesterday, and getting to meet Michelle, Justin, Christine, Emily, and a ton others, I’m starting to look at things differently. Even though I’m scared, overwhelmed, pumped, and about a billion other emotions that I’ve not been able to process after the day was over, it’s been awesome to FEEL SOMETHING.
What I did decide to do was walk home, without headphones on, slowly and calmly. I got home, emptied my pockets, and went outside to have a smoke and reflect on things. It helped a little bit, but not to the degree that I’d thought.
Then I went back inside and put this picture on my mirror.
What that thing is are words that COMPLETE STRANGERS used to describe me. Then I looked at myself in my bathroom mirror, and did what any good wrestling fan would do.
I cut a promo on myself.
The gist of what I told myself was this: if I didn’t start thinking differently and tackling the (seemingly) impossible, then those words don’t mean a GODDAMN thing. I would have wasted everyone’s time. I would have met fucking AWESOME people for no reason. I would miss yet another opportunity. Even managing to do four things at the same time the night prior, a seemingly impossible feat, would have meant nothing. And for fuck’s sake…I’M WORTH IT.
I’m gonna stop worrying about the how, and just DO. What happened Saturday will continue, I promise you that. That way, I’ll finally be free, and do what I really want to do.
The time is now. I’m going to stop procrastinating…but I’m going to need a little help. You’ll help me, won’t you?
And to think that a silly little YouTube video changed all that.